I Did It.
Just Like All The Negativity In My Life.
I am not miserable, I am just healing.
No one will ever see thepower and beauty
I have if I keep toning it downfor the sake of those around me.
Give me strength when I feel like I might break
Let me have patience when life's plans have to change
Show me compassion when others may have less
Give me the energy to get from here to where I am going no matter who tries to stop me
Bring me my family
and protect my love
I know you won't let me fall too far...but I can't help but be scared sometimes
Surrogacy is a calling...it is something a woman knows she is meant to do the minute she first hears about it...it is a tug at her heart that never stops.
She may not even love being pregnant (I do!), but the need to help a family, change lives, and have a positive impact is unstoppable. The whole process is exciting and infinitely rewarding to her and when the time comes to stop, she feels loss. She has no alterior motives, nor is she heartless... she doesn't lack a connection to the child she is carrying, it is just a different kind of connection. It is the feeling like you are doing something so good and no one can ever take that away from you. In the times where she ends up with a new extended family, it is beautiful...and in the times where updates are less frequent she can still know that the family she helped create thinks of her often. At it's best, surrogacy leaves everyone involved feeling blessed to be a part of it and to have those in their lives that the process has brought together. I don't think I would feel nearly as accomplished, fulfilled, or whole if I had not had the chance to help those two families.
I have so much to doI know everyone says they havea lot to doBut I have too much to doToday, Tomorrow, and in LifeAnd I am distracted
First instinct is to help someone else
And forget to remember that
I have things to do tooWhy don't I ask for help?It is rarely there anywayA treadmill stuck in reverseI should be in schoolI should be ahead
Unstoppable and amazingBut I am stagnant and focus freeHow do I stop thinkingThat me can come later?Procrastination is a Ross traitAt least when it comes to self
preservationWish being selfish didn't feel so dirty
Not everyone HAS to say things they don't mean.
"Life Isn't Fair"
is just an excuse
~Me (12 years old)